reaching for the stars

So, I wrote earlier this year that I wanted to lose 50 pounds. Well, I have not done anything in order to accomplish that goal. I will do well for about a month but then I lose focus or my back starts hurting and I give up. Well today was it for me. I was trying on clothes at different stores and the size that I've been wearing since Alaina has been born no longer fit, so I tried the next size up and most of those didn't fit. It was very depressing! Then, while I was sitting in the dressing room with my kids, I bent over to put on my shoes and it seemed that I had an inflatible floatie underneath my shirt....oh wait, that was just my jelly roll! I was so upset that I decided to tell Pat that I am ready to start these P90x dvd's. I have heard of how difficult these dvd's are, but I am ready for the challenge. I am tired of being overweight and using excuses of why I am the size I am. Pat and I have decided to do these together so we'll see how well we do. I will be blogging each day after we do the dvd's given that I can still feel my arms. I hope that I survive through this. I am not setting a weight loss goal or anything like that, my goal through this is that I can keep up with the dvd's and that I feel more healthy and more physically fit. I want to have energy and be able to keep up with my kids while they play. I do have a lot on my plate with school, work, kids and home life, but I'm not going to let myself use that as an excuse any longer. I have known a couple of people that have done these dvd's and they have worked tremendously. I will keep you all updated on my progress!